A recent comment on one of my posts caused me to review my blog and to question what I am trying to say in writing it. Honestly, I didn’t really think that I had a purpose other than to express my thoughts on my changing spiritual perspective and to account for my changed views on Christianity, without overtly stating that I think Christianity has many false doctrines far removed from the original movement in Galilee. (Oops, there I have finally outright said it! So, I will let it ride). To be clear, I don’t think the whole of Christianity is evil, or false, just that it inadequately represents what the teachings of the Christ were meant to convey. I believe that the original ministry of Jesus was more in line with eastern philosophies than Christians are led to believe through their “Romanized” doctrines, and the truer message of Jesus, his references to the mysteries, needs to be sifted out from the political influences that structured what came to be known as western religion.
Many years ago when my agnostic tendencies started appearing one of the things that I realized was that Buddhists seemed to more follow and practice the teachings of Christ than Christians did. After reading the gnostic texts I began to see the unity in the bible with other spiritual teachings and that it was mostly interpretation that separated eastern and western philosophies, and that western interpretation seemed more created or “forced to fit” than did an eastern basis of interpreting the writings. I think the teachings of “the way” in Taoism, “enlightenment” in Buddhism and “kingdom of God” in Christianity are interesting similar. The tenet to “love thy neighbor” is not exclusive to Christianity and is present in most religions. I came to realize that spirituality has a unified oneness that Christianity in its western interpretation teaches people to overlook and cast aside.
Spiritually I am drifting toward mysticism. Hopefully that word doesn’t bring to mind crystal balls and tarot cards, etc., because that is not what I mean. Mysticism is defined as the search to identify with an ultimate reality or spiritual truth through conscious awareness, intuition, instinct and insight. I have been in that place for a very long time while stubbornly abiding the skeptical part of myself. I am continuously revisiting the religion of my upbringing, the religion most of my family still subscribes to, trying to understand the concealed mystery in the bible and how it relates back to the only commandment given by Jesus…to love others as you love yourself and as I have loved you.
I’ve written elsewhere that I consider that all souls travel a path back to the source, and that the spiritual journey contains many stations of knowledge. That is what religion represents to me, just a station of knowledge along the way. Mysticism in my understanding is recognizing that the path is long, twisting and unending in this physical lifetime. It is continuing to quest, to knock upon the unopened door and listen to the inner spirit guiding me along, until I take my last breath and know the truth of this existence and hopefully experience what can be understood as, “well done good and faithful servant, you have been faithful in a few things, enter into the joy of the Lord.”
Sidenote: As an example of changing perspective, my understanding of the word, “servant” in the verse above has changed. As a Christian I understood that word to describe someone trying to live a sinless life adhering to doctrine in an attempt to serve God. Now I understand the word “servant” to represent “one who has served”, the willingness to be of service to others (works, grace), to meet a need when it is known, obedient to the universal tenet to “love one another”.